The 1234th Thought 

Nobody knows what it takes for me to get here, at this point. Its not easy i can tell. The ups and downs, the joy and tear, heartbreaks and frustrations, name it all. dealing with all this requires you to deal a lot with your feelings and emotions and no matter how hard you try to deal with it, sometimes you just fail, and it sucks. Having a thoughts that keeps on playing in your mind through out the years is one of it.

How does it feels when you knew that you've tried your best in the relationship, and yet you still loose? its so frustrating to have the thoughts that no matter what happen, you still can't be the best and the person you love the most still can't be sure about you and the relationship

4 years seems to be worthless

and i starts to wonder why i'm still here, waiting